Who Stole the Mayo!

Today was soup kitchen day. After doing the inventory last night, we didn't need much from the store. Wednesday morning was filled with people preparing the trays for the meal and noticed we had no mayo or catsup. The pantry didn't have any either, so we looked everywhere. We knew it was there. Who would want to take one gallon of mayo and two huge containers of catsup? There were about 12 boxes of pudding. Why didn't they take that? After much disbelief and anger over food "stolen" from the soup kichen pantry, the mayo and catsup was found. There is a prankster in the group who is good at stuff like this and played a silly trick on the organizer of the kitchen. He wasn't there very long.
So let us all have mayo and catsup now. Gee.

My heart

Is it a heart attack or not? It used to be that, but I have no damage to my heart. Here's what happened.
Sat 2:00 a.m. severe pressure in chest, called 911. Waited 6 hours in E.R. to get back results.
Sat-results showed a slight enzyme increase which indicated a heart attack warning. Admitted into hospital.
Stayed in there to monitor condition for 4 days.
Wed-air lifted to Edmonton for heart cath. Had a medicated stint inserted, heart is good, no problems.
Sat-air lifted back to Fort Mac
Sunday-given a pass to go home to visit my girls, had to be back at the hospital at 10:00 p.m.
Monday-released.
Funny thing is I was on the psyc ward of the hospital. I teased my girls that they finally admitted me, but not in the cardiac unit! I'm doing better and hope to not have reservations about being alone here. I already had fears of being alone and something happening. Those fears came true. But I'm sure I brought that on to myself. I need to settle down and not be anxious.
A little less that 4 weeks, we will be going home for two weeks. I may not come back. J.K. I can't leave my husband here alone. I have to do this. I have to draw strength from God.

My brother in law

My brother in law has not been the best brother in law though out my married life with his brother. He has brought a lot of pain upon the family since he was a kid. But he has been changing in ways I cannot explain. Only God can. I can see a difference in his actions (somewhat) and in his voice. In the last few years he is becoming a stronger leader and a person I can rely on. The only thing I wish he would change is his drinking habits. I will not give up hope on that. One day that too will change. I pray for my brother in law. God knows my heart. One day my brother in law will cry out also. Thank you, God, for changing my brother in law. I look forward to a good relationship with him and so does his brother!

Prom and Mother's Day

I missed two important events again. Tyler's prom and Mother's Day. Granted, this year wasn't as bad as last, but this is the last year I'll do this again in Fort McMurray. Next year, I'll be home enjoying Tyler's Senior prom and Tori's prom if she goes. And Mother's Day with my family. We didn't go out. Norm doesn't want to go anywhere here and I didn't want to go because of that. I can't take him anywhere here. I'll go sometime myself to the mall and purchase some new underwear or something and eat at the Famous Wok. It doesn't take much to please me. The next big event is 4th of July, since no one is graduating this year. For 4th of July, I'll be home! Question is, will I make it until November??? That is 4 months after that. I hope so. We'll see.

My new friends, Sister in Christ Gwen

Gwen was sent to me by God to help me through some difficult times. Her husband is also a great friend. Gwen knows me like a sister now and senses when I have something going on. She is the cook in the soup kitchen and I have been trying to build a relationship with her so I can know her better. She has two children. And she wants to do what God wants her to do. Being a shy, quiet person, she is wise beyond her 27 years. But she also is not overpowering. She tends to keep her thoughts to herself. Except when it comes to me. She will talk to me and lift me up when I need it. I really appreciate this lady more than you will ever know! I pray God will bless her richly.

God

Today, I felt God's presence. He was at Fellowship Baptist church in the third row second seat from the left. I knew He was sitting there with me. I felt His breath as He spoke to my heart and let me know all is well. He told me not to worry about it. He had everything in control. I trust Him when He tells me that. He also told me He wasn't done with this city. He has plans for it and I am just another mustard seed to plant here. Someone else will come along and water it. I will make my mark here and then I will leave. He will take it from there. But for now, I have a lot to do before that time. I can say to Rejeana, Cindy, Janna and Norman tarry on till that day comes. Mom is on a mission for Christ! I love you all and all is well with my soul!

spring

Spring is right around the corner here in Fort mac. The ugly ravens are off somewhere and the seagulls are flying around the apartment now. We took a ride to the car wash today to wash my bike and finally see some green grass poking through. The snow is almost gone. I keep telling myself to soak this up because this is the last spring I will see here. It will be great when I can get on the elevator for the last time and say so long Fort Mac. I thought about the trip home this coming December and remembered that Cindy and her family aren't going to be there. I don't know if I will like not going home to my welcoming committee. I am so used to them being there I'm not sure if I will like it without them there this time. So many emotions going through my mind is causing me to go crazy. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. Right now, I guess I'll just be alone here to finish the job at hand.