Another year, another prom. This one is the last prom for my family. There is a sadness for me because I missed my last childs last prom. I really wanted to enjoy the whole senior year process with him since he will be graduating and he is my last child to do so. And guess what, he did it okay without me. Why do I put myself through all this? Because I know that my family raising years are almost over. People would say I should be feeling like this, or like this, , or like this, . And I thought I would be those things, but instead I feel like this-. Depressed, wondering what is next, exhausted, and mad that I couldn't be there.
I will be at Norman's graduation. I want to be there so bad that I wouldn't schedule a drs appointment for my ear on the day we leave for our flight. I want to go home for my son's graduation and NOTHING is going to keep me from it. Unless the plane crashes!
That is a very important time for us all. I feel that my job as raising children is officially finished. Would I do it all over again? You bet. In a heartbeat. I was thinking the other day about Rejeana and Cindy when they were small. Oh how I want that to be again. I would do things with them alot different. But wouldn't we all? The Bible remind me to "press TOWARDS the mark" not around the mark, not beside the mark, and not BEHIND the mark. So, that is my goal. I have to look forward. Forward to what God has in store for Norm and me. He will be my mate of 35 years and this is what we have dreamed of. I will be ready for the next mark in my life. I'm sure there will still be challenges and demands on our lives and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have grandchildren to come along side of them and mentor them into adulthood with their parents. I will look forward to spending alot of time with them.
So for now, I will prepare to pack for the trip home, my son's graduation, seeing my family and for our future retirement. We have alot to do on the farm and it will be good.
Rejeana, David, Tyler, Jake, Tori, Cindy, Joe, Carlee Maddie, Janna, Adam, Tanner and Norman. I love you with every beat of my heart and will see you in 2 weeks, if God tarries.
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