Happy St Patricks Day,
Where do I begin, We arrived in Fort Mac on Jan. 12. It has been a whirlwind experience thus far, but the greatest emotion is the homesickness that set in when Norm went back to work on the 19th. I have never felt that feeling so badly as I have this time. I cried from that day, every day, stayed on the couch for hours at a time, never left this room, feeling lonely, desolate, almost suicidal...until yesterday. I received a package from Rejeana, my daughter, that made my world come back to me. You would've thought that being a Christian I would turn to my Bible, my Lord. He never left me, I just went into deep dark despair and built this wall around me that Satan just loved because it blocked my view of everything-including God. In the package I found two cd's that Rejeana recorded for us with family events. One was Norman's band concert, WIBI's opening act which had a church member trying out for it and then the all time favorite-family dinner. I popped that into my laptop and you know how the video of AH Ha sucked the girl in to see the guy? That is how I was. I got sucked in emotionally back home within my laptop and stayed there for two hours! I felt home, free, elated, happy and just seeing them and hearing their voices made me feel there is a great blessing at the end of this long, long tunnel. Praise God! I actually felt like I was there with my family. I felt life and encouragement. When the cd was over, I was back in this lonely apartment. But it was different. Now when the days get really long and I long for home and my family, I can pop in this CD and I am there if only for the moment. I can't thank Rejeana enough for the gift she sent. It was truly a blessing and LIFE giving for me. Unfortuneatly, I can't say that for Norm. It made him even more ready to go home. In time, he, too will be where I am. Ready for a new day. A newer chance to try this again. I have two years to be here and I have to make the best of it. But for now...I love you Rejeana, David, Ty, Jake, Tori, Cindy, Joe, Carlee, Maddie, Janna, Adam, Tanner, and Norman. As well as the rest of all our families. I love you with every beat of my heart! I miss you. Until we see each other again.....