I have this lump in my throat. It's the "saying goodbye" lump. It isn't infectious, or can't be cured by going to the doctor. It's something only a good cry can take care of. I am trying hard not to do that right now. I have to leave again on Tuesday and I hate leaving time and time again. One day I won't have to, but for now I will keep this lump until Tuesday. Then it will disappear for the moment. It seems that my life is filled with this knowledge of going back and forth to Canada to finish out the retirement plan. But looking back on our lives, I see that God has been filling my life with that scenario and know that He knew we were going to be doing this and wanted to prepare us. When the kids were in school, we were going back and forth to Carlinville to keep them in the school district. One day I know I will not be doing this. My kids will do okay, mom and dad will be looking forward to July come Wednesday morning.
The lump will come back Wednesday again for a time. Maybe I'll just take some aspirin and do alot of praying.
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